i’m neck deep in boxes and heart deep in my book proposal.
we move next week.  just to a new house- not far away, but i still have to get everything that’s in this house into the other house.  that is a big job. on tuesday we have the swat team coming to help us.  how many people can say the marine swat team are their personal movers?  we’re blessed, and i’m relieved.

my book proposal is coming along .  i’m not finished yet, but my message is weaving itself together well and i’m feeling good about it.  i hope that a publisher sees enough merit in the message to be willing to at least take a copy of my proposal with him/her for further consideration.  i’ve been frantically pulling at loose ends trying to tie them down and make sure that the message i’m sharing is one of hope and encouragement.  its been a messy road.  i’m writing about my life as a mother of a boisterous boy, and that can be painful at times.  i struggle to find the balance between honesty and candor and also protecting my family.  i don’t want to be remembered as the angry mom, or the bitter mom, but the mom of a boisterous boy who’s learned to adapt, accept and enjoy her boy for who he is.  this is a delicate balance to strike.  some days the words seem to have dried up, and other days they flow like water. i love those days.  where i am just the vessel, directing the words to perch where they may in my story and i can allow them to flow forth.  it’s a great feeling. other days i feel like i could get sick i try so hard to pull words out from thin air, and nothing comes.  i’m praying in these last few days for more water days and less desert.

we’re enjoying the summer.  it’s amazing to me that it’s already the middle of july. my children go back to school in just a little over a month.  hard to believe that time marches on so quickly.  i want to grab hold of it, pause the time at the pool, where their faces are sunkissed and happy- to absorb that deep in my soul.  remember.  enjoy. taste.

i need to get back to the grind.  words are hovering and i need to tack them down with clarity.  thanks for being here.

xo